I feel quite guilty, since one of my tasks for the summer was to write a blog post for both blogs once a week, and I've failed that miserably.
Life has turned around quite nicely. On Monday, Master's wife is being induced. Alexandria Rose will be arriving very, very soon, so I must finish her blanket quickly. It's coming along nicely, and my secret additions will be great as well. Master and Wife are going to be great parents, I believe. They know how not to parent their children and how not to treat them. Both have shady pasts that have made them the incredible people they are today, so I know that they will continue to rise above their pasts and excel in the future.
Three days ago, Wednesday, I had a reconstructive knee surgery on my right knee. I was released from the hospital on Thursday afternoon, and have since spent a majority of my time in my bed at home. The drugs keep me quite fuzzy headed, but usually free of pain. Today my family and I went grocery shopping, which I've since decided I wasn't ready for. I barely had the stamina for a shower earlier today, so why I decided to go shopping, I don't really know. I have plenty of yarn to keep me occupied and a crochet magazine with new patterns in it for me to learn. I'm having a good time learning new patterns and stitches.
I've learned a lot about myself since my medications have started working well. It's a surprising thing, discovering things about yourself that you should have known already. I've come to realize that I didn't know myself very well at all in my teen years.
I like to learn. I enjoy the reading and studying that goes along with my summer classes, Political Science and MicroEconomics. I'm looking forward to school starting up again, and so far am not intimidated by the 16 credits I'll be taking in the fall semester. I hand chose all of the classes for my schedules, so I am at least interested in the topic they cover, which definitely helps the eagerness. I added a minor in Women and Gender Studies also, and if the next few years' projected schedule of classes changes, I'll probably be adding a minor in Sociology as well. I also find that I look at genres other than romance and erotica, though mostly its nonfiction I browse through. (I've also had to put aside pleasure reading for the most part. With all the after-surgery medications and sleeping I've been doing, I don't have time to read anything but homework until the end of the semester.)
I am quite friendly, even though I am always shy. At work, I've made a few friends whom I hope to keep talking to even though I'm done working for nearly two years due to the surgeries. I like talking and interacting with people, which I'm glad to have learned since my major is Social Work.
My relationship with Master seems to just be getting stronger with time. I am rarely unhappy anymore, and especially not because of him. Our relationship is definitely not what I've found as the "norm" in this lifestyle, but it suits us and what we need. We are still D/s, and I am still his submissive, but I think I identify as more of a pet than a submissive. At least in our day to day relationship. I check his emails and sort through them to keep his inbox organized. We talk on and off through the day, in a "normal" exchange of dialogue, not the "proper" or tiered speech between a Master and sub. I definitely like the way we interact, as I feel more cherished and valued this way. I always felt awkward and tentative when speaking more formally with Master, and I don't like feeling that way. I go out of my way NOT to feel like that on a regular basis.
I think my long post has finally summed up the past few months. Nothing significant has happened, in the event sense, but so much has come into light lately that I felt I had to share with anyone willing to read.
Now I must go clear my head with a nap and get some homework read and written.
Appartengo a mi Lupo. <3
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