Day 1

Just recently Master has decided he needs to rearrange his priorities. Life is getting in the way of us and he has to transfer some of his time elsewhere. While it devastated me for the first day, so much so that I didn't eat a thing and skipped my two classes to lay in bed all day, I'm much more rational now.

Sometimes things have to be rearranged in order to be healthy for everyone involved. Poly is different than anything I've ever experienced before, not that I've had actual vanilla relationships before. But I know how they work. Two people, managing their outside time and their relationship time. Well poly is no different in that way, just that there are two women in his life, not just one. His wife is first priority, her happiness and security. His second (I think) is his job, which should be soon turning into two jobs. Plus school, hopefully. I'd love to see him be the first in his family to get a college degree. *smiles*

Contrary to the thoughts I've heard on the subject, I'm quite ok with my situation. So many have told me that he is not being a "real Master", or that he "does not deserve" me. They're wrong. I know the details, more than I probably wanted to know. And I support his decision. He's doing what he needs to do for the good of all three of us, not just him and his wife. He has included me in his decision-making and the final decision. Granted, I'm not too happy he wants to find someone to watch over me while he's busy, but that's his decision. If it gives him greater peace of mind while he's running around and dealing with the stresses of life, I'll gladly have a handful of people watch over me.

I was told tonight that he wants someone to watch over me because he's scared to lose me. *smiles* If that's true, I welcome the watchers. I can deal with them, if that's what it takes for him not to worry about me. Afterall, this is a great chance to change my bad habits. Instead of waiting around to hear from him, I'll know when I should hear from him. So that way I'll concentrate (theoretically) more on my struggling Bio and Math grades, and study Italian... oh and possibly work on my American Lit paper drafts. Though the first ones are more pressing.

Ciao! Buona notte! (Good night) :)