:(

I feel like a convenience. There's a Buffy quote that fits my feelings nearly perfectly. Season 5, when Xander and Buffy are talking about Riley's ultimatum.

Buffy: What am I supposed to do? Beg him to stay?
Xander: Why wouldn't you? To keep Riley here you—
Buffy: I don't even know who he is anymore! I mean, I thought he was... dependable.
Xander: Dependable? What is he, State Farm?
Buffy: You know what I mean.
Xander: Yeah. I think you mean convenient. I think you took it for granted that he was gonna show up when you wanted him to, and take off when you didn't.

It's what I feel like the last few days. I don't feel submissive, or taken care of, of dominated... I really do feel like a burden, or a convenience. Like I'll be around when he has the time, and do my own thing when he doesn't. Be there for support when he needs it, fade into the shadows when I'm not needed.

Kinda put myself here though...