It isn’t looking like it’s going to end well. I’m not even sure what to think right now.
Master and I were so happy earlier, talking, teasing, being fun. We got to talking about me moving in, and my answer. Things felt like they were falling into place, because he said they are looking for places in Michigan, homes to move into. Life would be great, I could move in and help out while still doing my own thing. I would be close enough to my family that I could still visit as much as I could afford to.
And then I asked Candy why she was so eager for me to move in. She’s confused, just like I am now, because she said “He always thinks I’m eager when I ask about stuff repeatedly.” She said the only reason she kept asking was so she could figure out where his thoughts were and how life would change with me with them.
So now I’m so very confused, and the pizza is rolling in my stomach, and I can’t talk to him about it yet because he’s working. Though I think I might just leave them to talk it out when he gets out of work. I’m kinda tired of being in the middle like this.
*sigh*
I’m not sure what to think anymore. My skeptical side is coming out. The rational side that has been screaming at me for a while now, “Why did you think this was EVER going to work out?” And I’m not sure. Mostly because I want it to. I want to try this. I want to be with him, with them. I want to do this for him and make him happy… but in the meantime, I have to deal with his wife and the miscommunications between them.
So we’ll see later how this turns out. See if it can be compromised on, or if that is another dream we both can’t have.
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