... of not knowing what to do. Master's wife confided in me today that she feels very alone and as though he is avoiding her, doesn't want to be around her. But she hasn't been able to fix it, and says I'm not allowed to mention it to him. He'll only get upset with her for bringing me into it.
But what should I do about it? I mean, if she's feeling neglected and unwanted... what does that say about me? He's devoting all kinds of time to me, I know. So if he's avoiding her and spending time with me... why are they married? I understand love about as much as it is possible to understand it. I may be a virgin, but I'm not stupid or naive or blind.
But sometimes I feel blind. I can't see their love. She tells me those things, and he tells me how aggravating she is sometimes. And I never hear about them being happy. Or him telling me goodnight early because they're going to have a couple's night. Once since they've been married (for about 3.5 months or so) he's talked about sex with her, and that was just the other night. And he only brought it up to tease me, saying soon I'll be watching.
I don't understand their love, even though he's tried to explain it to me multiple times. It doesn't make sense to me. How can two people be together, yet not spend time alone, or work on their relationship, or even demonstrate their love...
I just don't understand. And now I'm in the middle again, wanting to help, feeling helpless (in a bad way) and as though I'm causing some of it (yet again)... And not being able to do shit about it.
Ugh.
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