Things between Master and I have started going better. Today we are supposed to have a date and I'm so very excited! It's the first actual "us" time we've had in a long time, so long as it happens soon. Staying at my grandmother's house to get Christmas sugar cookies done, a few gingerbread houses, and gingerbread cookies done too. It's so very nice to be home.
Turning into his secretary is going to be a challenge, but I think I'm up to it. So far it's been alright, sorting emails and organizing the different email accounts. It's weird, having something specific to do all day. There's a lot of accounts to check through the day though, which I hope I don't ever forget to do.
I have this feeling of obligation, though. He's given me the passwords and such for the accounts I'll need to do this job, but hasn't asked for anything in return. I can't understand how he's so comfortable with giving all of this to me. I understand trust, which is why I'd like to give him something that proves I would never use the things he's entrusted me with in horrible ways.
I can't help feeling like I owe him my own information, though (1) he has no use for it and (2) he might feel like I'm doing it out of obligation. And in a sense I would be, but I've heard that entrusting your Dom with all personal information is a sign of deep devotion and true submission.
So I'm very conflicted. I'm not sure what to do now, whether to surprise him with it, or talk to him about it. Or just let it go for now.
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